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I’m not even sure where to start this blog, honestly. These photos were actually more of a journey for me, and how I felt about myself.
When I was throwing around the idea of really doing boudoir photos (I’ve done 3 before, but was pretty green still) I had someone ask if I would do it. I immediately said no. Easy answer. NO. The reasoning why is the reason why we would all say no. Because I don’t feel comfortable with my body, I don’t like the things on my body, or that aren’t, or my hair, or clothes, or the cellulite on my legs. I just didn’t want to see my photos of me 1/2 naked, or have anyone take them. It just was so UNCOMFORTABLE.
So anyways, I got a beautiful make up artist with a heart of gold and wanted to team up. We sat and talked over coffee, and talked about what we wanted actually in these photos. We both agreed that this was about showing women their true beauty, even if their body wasn’t “perfect” (even though I am still confused as to what that is or ever will be) but we wanted to show our clients just how beautiful they are. She would do their make up, I would take their photos. But this would be more of an experience, a process to learn to love your body…. we hoped.
When our first client booked, I was so pumped. I had a vision. I knew what I wanted to capture, and how I wanted to show her her beauty. I did some research on pinterest, and pinned a ton of photos that I connected with. After a few days of doing research, and really thinking about this subject I realized that maybe my heart was changing towards this subject. I started realizing that boudoir photos really what you make them, and actually can be anything you want them. That actually maybe if I had someone who believed in my beauty and didn’t see all my flaws, they could maybe show me my beauty in an boudoir sort of way. My heart started to open.
When Courtney and I met this lovely lady at her her consult, I was a bit nervous. This is quite the job I felt, to make a lady feel beautiful in such a critical world. I knew that I would have to go outside my boundaries and really get down to the emotional side of this shoot, and make this most beautiful lady feel the the way I saw her. On the day of her shoot, I showed up with coffee in my hand and Courtney had started her magic, and we just sat and soaked in the sun talking over life and love. It was just a moment that I wanted to stay in forever. We were doting on a lady, and really seeing such beauty. We eased into the shoot, and it was a little tense (of course, because hello we’ve met you twice and now I’m almost naked) but then we just laughed, and played, and moved from room to room and outside where the glorious sun was shining. The shoot ended, and I felt like we maybe did our job. Just maybe.
I came home, and immediately started editing. I LOVED what we had shot, and all of a sudden I wanted my photos taken! I wanted to find my beauty, and find my sexuality, and not feel shameful doing it.
All this to say, here are some boudoir photos. I’m in love with them! I’m in love with her! and I am so grateful for the openness that she had, and now that she is letting me show just a preview of her beauty.
Courtney and I would love to meet with you. Lets face our fears together of un perfection, lets get out of our comfort zone, and really be ok with the person we are RIGHT NOW. Because we are all amazing beautiful women.
p.s. she did these for her husband, and the verdict. HE LOVED THEM!